After watching Hanuman Ansh, I sat quietly for a while. I had been so excited about the film, and why wouldn’t I be? It was about Maharajji. He has been part of my life for as long as I can remember, and my family’s devotion to him goes back generations. There was something deeply personal about going to watch his story on a screen.
When the film ended, though, I felt disappointed because I had hoped to see more of the unconditional love that, for me, defines Maharajji. I do think it is a great film. It captures Baba’s early life and his miracles, and I am glad these stories are reaching people. But I came away wishing there had been more room for the part of him that means the most to me.
I kept thinking about the people who came into his life. What made them stay? What made them return, sit near him, and carry him in their hearts for the rest of their lives?
I believe it was the way he loved them. The feeling of being accepted, with all their worries, weaknesses and mistakes. Of being known without having to explain everything. An extraordinary experience might bring someone to Baba, but his love could become the reason they never really left.
I never met Baba in person, but I have felt that same love through Siddhi Ma. That feeling is far beyond anything I can put into words. For me, Ma was the doorway to loving Maharajji with complete devotion. Her love helped me understand what it means to trust and surrender.
That is what I wished I had felt more deeply while watching the film.
It also made me think about how we approach Maharajji today. People visit Kainchi hoping for a miracle, an answer, a change in their circumstances. I understand that. We turn to Baba with the things that frighten us, the people we worry about, and the hopes we can barely say aloud. Those prayers have a place in our relationship with him.
You do not find Maharajji only in Kainchi. You find him in your heart. He is in every temple where Hanumanji is worshipped, wherever Ram’s name is taken with devotion. He is present in your kindness, in your love, and in your seva.
His presence is not confined to one place. You can speak to him from wherever you are, with whatever is in your heart. And when you leave Kainchi, that connection comes home with you, into the way you live, the way you love, and the way you care for others.
Alongside seeking his blessings, do we also make space to know him? To understand his teachings and let them influence how we live?
I ask myself this too. It is easy to be moved by a story about Baba. Practising love and patience in an ordinary, frustrating day asks something more of us. It asks us to notice someone who needs help, to feed someone who is hungry, to speak gently when we are irritated, and to offer kindness without expecting anything in return.
I wish we spoke about these things as often as we spoke about his miracles. About what his love asks of us, and how we might pass a little of it on.
I have surrendered my life to Ma and Maharajji, and I believe they are taking care of me at every stage. Whenever I have doubts, I talk to them in my mind. I tell them what is worrying me, what I cannot understand, and where I feel lost. There is comfort in being able to speak to them wherever I am, without needing to find the right words.
On a bad day, I remind myself that something worse could have happened. That thought helps me find a little gratitude and peace, even when the day has been difficult. When I am in trouble, I tell Ma and Maharajji, and then I leave my worries with them.
Hanuman Ansh left me wanting to speak about that side of Baba. The warmth, the closeness, the unconditional love that made people feel they belonged. That is the Maharajji I hold in my heart, and the Maharajji I wish more people came to know.